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[CHRISTOPHER310]

...God, I cry out to you...
Look upon me,
Upon my life.
As the tears come down,
I�m on bended knees.
Feeling ashamed and lost.
Feeling unwanted and useless.
Feeling hurt and broken.
Look down up me o� dear Lord,
Look down upon my life.
I confess my sins.
My misguided ways I take upon my own doing.
The sinful things I do that separates me further away from you my dear Lord.
I come to you like this and worst.
Asking you to look down up me,
Asking you to forgive me.
Bring me back from my darkness into your fold once again dear Lord.
Help heal me from my own self inflicted wounds of sin.
I try and I fail,
Over and over again,
To follow you and your wonderful ways you have for me.
I am weak and foolish.
To blind to be strong enough to stand upon my own.
Without you dear Lord, I crumble like dirt walls in a rainstorm.
I need you my dear Lord...
In my life,
In my thoughts,
In my heart.
Stronger than I can ever bring forth myself.
I need you dear Lord,
And I ask you,
I cry out to you...
Look upon my me,
Upon my life,
And forgive me...
Save me from myself.
Take me back into your fold once again.
I need you dear Lord.
I need you forever more.

Written by: Christopher **** ~ June 28th, 2014

[Ginger]

Christopher,

 

God KNOWS the depths of your mind, each component, each thought.

 

He KNOWS every thought, feeing, habit, pattern, and all that pertains to you and also all that pertains to every human being ever to be born. 

 

Somehow in spite of my own stuff I have maintained there is more than any opinion I could have regarding you as a person, a man, a father, and whatever position or whatever relationships you have had, have or ever will have. Why so?  From looking at my own self and my own failings I see a need that I can't attain unless God graces me with whatever I lack.  For this to happen perhaps I needed to not be able to do until I truly surrender all things to Him.  I only know that I don't know, nor does another person.  Only God truly KNOWS and uses others' to help me come to Him as best as I can.... God never fails regardless of my failings... so reckon I need to know more about learning.  I can learn, to learn, to learn to by Grace.

 

So your post above I will give thanks to God and for you posting and pray a new beginning be your daily experience.  This is the day that the Lord hath made.  Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

 

True repentance can happen so many times in just one day. 

 

I change my mind and God changes my heart.

 

Now I don't know what to do to change the things in my life that have been and are a real mess.  Choices are only part of the dynamic of change... And it is also beyond knowing that action is necessary.  The ability to do the wee smallest thing has become something to give thanks for and to be grateful to God for .  Things I used to do and take for granted are now because of God's tender mercies ... long ago I'd quip, "Choices man, choices".  Now, well, GOD KNOWS....

 

I ask our Father in Jesus name to effect in each of us what He KNOWS is best and most pleasing to Him.

 

May Jesus increase and each of us decrease .... May the Holy Spirit make it so according to our LORD'S wisdom, grace and tender mercies.  Amen.

 

Shalom.

 

One of your sisters' in Christ, by His tender mercies.

Ginger

 

PS long ago a person shared that we can start our day over as many times as needed....