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#21 CHRISTOPHER310

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Posted 28 June 2014 - 04:35 PM

Thanks Radar. I am no longer posting to this entry. If others wish to, they can.


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Posted 28 June 2014 - 10:06 PM

Ginjer, Your repeated use of "Glynn" inexcusable in this context; it is "Glenn".

Not at all Sincerely,
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Spblie

On a serious note I pray God's very best for you Glenn. Our God's heart is very much with those who have been brought low by sin and Satan. May he continue to rebuild you for His Glory.

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Thank you for making me aware of misspelling Glenn's name.  I am so sorry for this because names are important.  Sometimes a person's name is besmirched and .... well, God KNOWS...

 

God bless you and thank you.

 

Ginger

 

PS I don't know how to do the 'quote' screen thing so please forgive c/p of what you've written and not putting it in the individual screen.

 

Thank you again for making me aware of misspelling Glenn's name.  I hope that God blesses him in ways that .... Well our Father does all things well, and He knows I need His help to pray or to write aright.

 

Sometimes I miss the humor a person intends ... perhaps .... well, God KNOWS.....


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Posted 28 June 2014 - 10:37 PM

Chris (radar) ... thank you so much for writing your post above and for sharing the video clip too. Each is a blessing and I do appreciate you and your post. 

 

Writing about myself and not meaning to apply anything to another person.  If something does apply hopefully it becomes a sincere matter of prayer and God will be honored as only He Knows each person .... I believe God Knows me and each person that posts much better than they or I know our own self.

 

Would like to add that some humans' come to a forum to become truly acquainted with a few people and develop a friendship or a relationship as much as possible via posting.  God Knows who will be a blessing to one another and well, for me personally I've been gifted to have the blessing of  becoming better acquainted.  There is only so much energy and choosing how to expend it can sometimes need prayer too.... I need prayer and to change some things ... GOD KNOWS... sometimes people only suppose.... So please spare me a prayer that I do hear God and obey.... seems I am failing miserably in using energy and time wisely.... no sense joking about "old age ain't for sissies."   Habits and patterns are really upsetting to me... and it is not only bad choices.... again, God KNOWS...

 

God KNOWS where each of us are in our hearts and minds and what our mental and physical abilities truly are.

 

Well, as for me I've been blessed by your sharing and posting and do thank you.

 

God bless.

 

To God be the glory.

 

Hopefully faithful to Him.

 

Sincerely,

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Posted 29 June 2014 - 10:22 AM

You aren't kidding about old age not being for sissies, Ginger.    My habits and patterns -- time wasting are upsetting me too!    This current economic situation makes it difficult to find a do-able part-time job.   I'm too old to work full-time as a nurse.   Even volunteering is an ordeal --- applications, background checks, interviews.   Finally got a call for a volunteer job interview the day after my husband died so was in no condition to go.   You wonder what God is up to, don't you?   I heard the term "sanctified idleness"  the other day -- maybe here at this site, don't remember --- I just hope that's what this is.


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Posted 30 June 2014 - 10:03 AM

Kate,  As I read your post about your husband, I began to pray.  Two years an 3 months ago I woke up on my son`s wedding day to find my wife of 40 years dead on the floor.  No health problems, nor had she been sick at all.  I cannot even imagine suicide of a spouse, so my situation was a bit different than yours, but I imagine many of the questions we asked ourselves were and are the same.  Unfortunately, the answers don`t come.  Loneliness seems to close in like a smothering blanket and most all urges to go and do things seem to evaporate. I would so like to tell you that in a month or so all will be well and your life will return to normal, but that would not be true.  It does get better, bit by bit, month by month, and prayer by prayer.  I used to pray every night and ask God to not let me wake up the next day...but I always did.   One day I saw a Bible on a shelf, wrapped in a rubber band and covered with dust.....but it had a marker in it.  I took it down, dusted it off, and opened to the marked page. Only one passage was marked, and it had to have been marked by Fran some time ago.  Psalms 28: 6-9.  Now we have many Bibles in the house and have for years so we can study for SS and other small group meetings, but this Bible was one I had never really noticed before although I`m sure it had been there for years.

 

I praise God for the 40 years with Fran and all the love we had, along with 2 fine sons. I`m better now and life goes on but I think about her every day.  Now the thoughts are happy ones that make me smile a bit as I think back about incidents and good times we had. Life is different but it is good. 

 

Advice for you in this time of drastic change and confusion?  I don`t have much.  I`ll tell you what I did....I went to the Lord every day, many times every day, and asked Him to let me stay in His arms, let me just rest in Him, let me turn all the hurt and pain over to Him to deal with because I just could not handle it.  I was going to die and I knew it, had I not been able to get rid of all that hurt....and here is the thing, I didn`t care if I did die.  That would have been a relief.  All the pain drove me closer to the Lord because I had to depend on someone much bigger than me.......and it was HIM.

 

Kate, may God bless you and hold you in His arms.  May He whisper in your ear that He loves you more than you can imagine.  May He give you a peace that passes all understanding.  He will do all that and more...because He said He would.

 

Your brother in Christ,

 

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Posted 30 June 2014 - 10:28 AM

Thank you, Charlie.   Especially thank you for letting me know that this strangeness and apathy are something you experienced as well.  

 

What a devastating shock Fran's passing away so suddenly, unexpectedly and on the dawn of her son's wedding day. . .so many of us bear these hidden wounds.   I'm more conscious of that nowadays -- makes it easier to be forgiving and patient when others try us because you just don't know their hearts.

 

Rest assured, the Lord has a firm grip on me.   I have questions, but my faith is not shaken.    Your fellow pilgrim, Kate


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Posted 07 July 2014 - 09:15 AM

Thank you everyone, for your measured and gracious responses. It is our hope at the National Office that conflict with grace are evidenced within this community and it is my sincere assessment that has happened here. Prayers for all that have commented on this topic!



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Posted 08 July 2014 - 07:35 AM

I have been very blessed by our  some of our regulars of this forum. Ginger, Kate, Big John, Glenn, Radar, and Charles Miles.  I want to say THANK YOU.......as humbly as I can.......for sharing those heart-rending stories about yourself.  And to see y'all using the tragedies in y'all's life  in an attempt (allbeit... in vain) to help the original poster.

    Yeah, I started feeling my blood pressure rise and my face flushing red as I read some of the stuff on the first page of this particular thread. "for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh."

  It would be so easy.....and so carnal......for me to focus on the negative aspects of this thread. (I had to pause and pray before even typing a word or I'd a been banned).  But.......thank God that we are all different and I believe that God factored that into the Gospel........His Love for us humans prompting Him.

    But back to the wonderful people who shared part of their life with us on this forum. And to see all of you posting now for the purpose of trying to build someone else up.......it really makes me look at my own walk with Jesus. And I see that I can be very SELF-MOTIVATED at times. Well.....MOST of the time. There. I said it. LOL     God Bless each one of you today and Glenn, I have been EXACTLY where you are. I have 'started over' so many times. I am 51 yrs old now and I have lost count of the times that I found myself knocking on the door of a homeless shelter.........holding a black plastic bag (my suitcase) in my hand while pleading my case to the proprietor of the establishment.

   But I never stopped praying and trusting in God. Even during the drug addiction and alcoholism.

 And now, years later, I find myself here, being very useful to someone who cannot do for theirself. I have my own car now. I am blessed by God on SO many levels now.  It all started getting better for me almost 11 years ago when I decided that I was going to trust in every word that God said/says.  That is also when I sobered up and have been sober ever since. But in NO way can my own personal story even come CLOSE to most of the stories that my fellow brothers and sisters shared about themselves. But it has such a faith-building effect.....to listen to their stories of untold anquish....and then, come rising out of it like the phoenix out of the ashes.  God Bless all, today.


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