Christopher, I am sorry that you are struggling so much. One thing I urge you to do immediately is to start focusing on who you are in Christ. It's the enemy who is planting thoughts of self-loathing in your mind, and the best way to come against those lies is to remind yourself of your identity in Christ (what God's Word says about you as His beloved child).
Here's a link to get you started:
http://encouragingbi...m/verses2a.html
It's also possible that the enemy is seeking to attack you with a spirit of rejection. If that's the case, you need to stand against his schemes by rebuking any such spirit in the name of Jesus. Declare aloud who you are in Christ and what the Scriptures say about you. Do NOT, I repeat, do NOT write statements about yourself like those you wrote in "Burn My Book" - in doing so, you are agreeing with Satan and not with what God says about you.
The devil is waging a war against your mind and emotions, and you need to take the offensive. Put on the full armor of God each and every day so you can stand against his schemes. It also might be wise to seek Christian counseling in dealing with your feelings of rejection/self-loathing.
You can have victory in this area! I know this because I've struggled with similar feelings and have found freedom in Christ. As a child of God, you can be an overcomer!
Remember that you are never alone if you have the Lord. Jesus promises never to leave us or forsake us. He is with you always!
I will pray for you.
May grace and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus, the Messiah, be yours!
Julie