I'm going to post this without edit and caring about structure as I just want to be perfectly honest.
I have to admit I'm afraid of death and open this topic for those who want to reply sincerely and helpfully.
It's the transition of this life, leaving it.....I guess it's about being deceived somehow in the end to follow a false spirit. It's crazy but true. I'll post this as not to hijack your post here. I've been wanting to post for some time, but don't want the post waylaid.
I watched my father refuse Christ at the end of his 83 years. A pastor visited him and this was good in my eyes as he was close to my father's age and I believed he might have been more credible than his daughter. There was no "believing and receiving" that I know of...at least no outwardly. I watched my father reach upwards, smile and pass on as if he saw someone and was happy. But, he was on morphine which I believe can cause hallucinations? I don't look at that as any kind of "sign".
I want to pass freely without fear from this life. I know the scripture, "absent from the body, present with the Lord." I also know the scripture, "If any man's work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire."
Finally, I want to serve the Lord with my life now that I'm 62 and done parenting and such and could just go to Haiti for six months each year to help however or whatever. I don't need to work any more but do so to "contribute" to life. I believe my husband would not be keen on this.....he does not have that burden for sure. I don't want to go against him at all.
SO, the last scripture, "If any man's work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire." seems to apply to me.
Thank you for your insights as offered.