Intimacy

After this, Jesus went around in Galilee, purposely staying away from Judea because the Jews there were waiting to take his life. But when the Jewish Feast of Tabernacles was near, Jesus' brothers said to him, "You ought to leave here and go to Judea, so that your disciples may see the miracles you do. No one who wants to become a public figure acts in secret. Since you are doing these things, show yourself to the world." For even his own brothers did not believe in him.

Therefore Jesus told them, "The right time for me has not yet come; for you any time is right.The world cannot hate you, but it hates me because I testify that what it does is evil.You go to the Feast. I am not yet going up to this Feast, because for me the right time has not yet come."Having said this, he stayed in Galilee.

However, after his brothers had left for the Feast, he went also, not publicly, but in secret. Now at the Feast the Jews were watching for him and asking, "Where is that man?"

Among the crowds there was widespread whispering about him. Some said, "He is a good man."
Others replied, "No, he deceives the people." But no one would say anything publicly about him for fear of the Jews."
(John 7:1-13 NIV)

Jesus is so close to his father that he knows what he's supposed to do and when.

I must once again get back to that first love and that intimacy. Then I will know that what I decide, what I do is in the Father's will for me.

Why is it such a constant struggle?